boredsigh.
updated my profile.
hooray.
hm. dunno what to do.
...
hm. still dunno what to do.
fine. i shall write.
haven't done it in awhile.
as i sit here and reflect on what has happened.
i remember alot of things.
first was how i actually got into this. a person.
and what that person had actually become.
it's hard to believe the story would end like this.
i count myself lucky.
second was the first group of people whom i met.
and how i gave them up temporarily to be with someone else.
in the end, like the losing team in a big game.
i go back to my home. this world. like a drunk.
third was when i went back.
i caught up with the rest eventually.
and i was having fun. alot of it.
meeting different people. talking to them.
fourth was getting to know someone personally.
we shared alot of things together.
laughed alot too.
but the time wouldn't last.
fifth was the new year.
the time went. i never saw that person again.
but now the rest of the gang.
broke apart slowly.
people not from here.
i didn't really get.
but later when i came back.
i realised. what happened.
sixth was the loner period.
guild broke. didn't know what to do.
went scrounging around.
until i found you.
seventh was joining a new one.
new community of friends. found an old one.
started progressing. finally.
slowly i grew closer to the one i looked for.
eighth was break and reforming.
for some reason or another.
but i was always with you.
as we jumped from one to another.
ninth was concentrating on a new character.
somehow you came along too.
soon enough both of us were ready.
but abrupt endings were coming soon.
tenth was meeting you.
first it was weird. i wondered how both of you connected.
in the end i realised.
but still it was a weird meeting. albeit a nice one.
eleventh was when i had to go.
for one month but.
meeting the both of you.
had made a big impact in my life already.
twelfth was when i came back.
all that emotion came rushing back.
both of you had gone so far off without me.
but welcomed me back with open arms.
thirteenth was changing and changing again.
finally you decided we go over.
but then we left her behind.
pretty sad. sigh.
fourteenth was dealing with the new people.
at first i thought they were really pushy and frustrating.
but slowly i realised i was the one holding them all back.
so i apologised. they did back.
fifteenth was slowly progressing.
i had alot of fun.
both ranting and working hard.
earning credit which i never spent.
sixteenth was realising.
that i had to move again.
told them and predicted.
a date much later than this.
seventeenth was getting the last character up.
it wasn't very long but i had a premonition.
that i didn't have alot of time left.
so i hurried.
eighteenth was a new group.
this time i led. and it was pretty sucessful.
but i realised that the fun wouldn't last.
even though we progressed really far.
nineteenth was the revelation.
that i really wouldn't make it. even to leave my 2nd character on time.
explained to everyone. bowed my head and said sorry.
they all nodded. and said it was okay.
twentieth was meeting again.
in a short span of 4, 5 days.
found that i had a problem before my birthday.
which was great. which hurt someone again.
twentieth was saying goodbye to the last group.
they all said thank you. took a picture.
two of my friends weren't there.
they chose their way out.
twenty-first was last reunion with my guild.
we downed a new boss. shared the joy.
went on but couldn't clear one last boss.
to open the door. but it was fine.
twenty-second was trying to get the first people together.
over the months we still kept contact.
but on that day. to my dismay. (hey it rhymes)
only 2 of them were there. not like the rest were at fault.
twenty-third was sending all the letters.
thanks, good luck, good bye.
add a cake with creamy icing.
perfect formula for farewell.
twenty-fourth was the emotion.
while writing these letters.
least important first. most important last.
slowly the tears came to my eyes. especially when i wrote the last two.
one who i treasured in my heart but would never see again in there.
another one who i also treasured. but followed me all the way to the end.
and there we stopped.
and i went to sleep. maybe forever.
twenty-fifth was dealing with the problem.
2 or 3 days big decisions had to be made.
in the end i decided. it had to end.
and so after i left. it did.
but what i will not remember yet.
because it's not a memory.
is that all these relationships i have formed are real.
they go out of the virtual world with me.
and all these people i have come to meet and like.
as buddies. as close friends.
people i will forever treasure in my heart.
and the two of you.
that is why this game is so beautiful.
i wasn't hooked on it for two years.
instead for two years i was making friends with everyone around.
and some have remained that close to me. i appreciate.
the money was well spent.
these things are priceless yet.
it has provided me.
with so much.
happiness.
sadness.
caring.
frustration.
education.
emotions.
creativity.
and appreciation.
it's a miracle i have come to know this.
and i am glad i have.
thank you blizzard.
i'm still angry at how the server is. but i'm gone. so thank you anyway.
not bad right? ^^
i can write alot when i want to.
oh well. till then.
farewell!
trust is a fragile thing.
it is easy to break.
yet trust is as strong as steel.
it can withstand anything forever.
friends trust each other with everything.
many have trusted me with their story.
and i trust them too.
maybe sometimes too much but.
i will do so too.
unlike my mother.
when the day comes.
to meet the both of you.